It’s early morning and I’m in my kitchen, trudging from the coffee pot (where I pour a fresh cup of life) to the pantry to get out breakfast (cereal & fruit today, because homemade pancakes are reserved for slow Saturday mornings). After the kids eat and they’re washed up and playing, I’ll dust the living room and then answer some emails in between wiping bottoms, filling sippy cups, and getting down on the floor to read a board book (for the thousandth time) to my fair-faced baby-girl or join the land of make believe pushing cars and tractors around with my creative little guy. Sometimes there’s a break for mindless social scrolling... and on occassion, there’s the need to put out a fire (figuratively speaking of course, well there was that one time - but that’s a story for another day). Checking my watch I see it’s almost lunch time, so there I head, back to the kitchen to prepare another meal. Pulling out leftovers I notice the feeling of emptiness, and my mind wanders... there has to be something else to focus on, something more than just going through these motions, just making it through the day. Eww, mom’s aren’t supposed to think like that, are they? My mom-guilt kicks in shaming me, can’t you just be grateful you have these precious little people to take care of. Yes mom-guilt... of course I am grateful, 1,000% I am. After giving myself a talking to I try to ignore the pull that won’t leave. Now so strong it’s echoing in my mind, that maybe there is something more. Could I be made for something more than this? I know there are some of you reading this saying YES, yes, I know those feelings! I have been torn like this before. Maybe, you’re torn right now. Maybe you’ve been there and shoved it back down, buried under the discomfort of said mom-guilt. Or perhaps, you went with it; saw it as a sign, that yes, your purpose was even bigger than this. Yet, you find yourself still struggling with that heavy motherly burden, that has been instilled in us (not even subconsciously, but often times like a bat to the face - that this isn’t what a “good mom” does). Still with me? It's about to get really GOOD!
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AuthorBobbie Dull is The Simplifying Specialist! Using her background as a Professional Organizer, Time & Home Management Consultant, and Certified Life & Health Coach she works with women who feel stuck, stressed and depleted by the daily monotony of life {especially mom-life}. Don't Miss It
September 2020
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